Lao Timun XX~

U tell me..
U r mine...
Judy's Lao Timun... :-)
I do not know I should happy or not...
But..I'm glad...
Fear in between me which I do not know when I can get rid of...
I hope to get rid of it...
Actually...
It is unfair to U...
But I really would want to give it a big try...
I do not know, Will it change something inside of me..
But I will give it a big try and best try
Lao Timun ar~
U must let me bully U ar..
Or else U going to ...hehe~
Opps...
Lao Timun ar~
I start to miss U...
But I don't want to miss U sometimes...
Haha~Very confusing...
But I like bully U...
Lao Timun XX~

Hope That Happiness Will Follow Me...

All the same...

>Maybe i should stop dreaming which it has prove to me...
>It is all the same...
>Never be the different one...
>I should have notice it earlier than I should have now...
>God has given me something which I do not like it...
>I hope I can be only a normal girl which never know anything...
>I rather to be a normal girl than a girl which could feel everything except to my own stuff...
>I never felt so lost...
>Till now...
>I just feel that I would want to know about myself...
>Why god given me something I can help people but not to myself...
>I hope I can feel n know about it and help myself...
>But it is fated that I can only help people but myself...
>May god bless me...

Hope that Happiness Will Follow Me...which is only a dream...

Wake up so early~

Today I wake up so early...
4am ar...A bit tiring...
Do assignment...
Gambate la..Lack of time...
Need more hardwork...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

Tired~

Today I'm so tired and U too...
I was wondering what is the class all about..
I'm looking forward to see U and know about the class..
Must be full of fun and tiredness...
Today no lullaby song lo...
I want lullaby song ar...
Must bully..This is a must to me...
Cause U are far bigger size than me
So must bully...
U won't fight back de I know...
Tired le...
Nitez...Muacks...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

How...Why...

I do not know why...
I do not know how...
To describe this kind of feeling...
How come, it become like that...
I try to use my ability and strength of analyzing to analyze everything...
But it seem like harder than i think of...
Can I understand everything...
Can I still understand..
Or I just think I have the ability to understand everything...
Hope everything is fine...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

I Told Already...

>I told my mum abt...
>I do not know about how she really feel about it..
>But she support me...
>I'm happy about it...
>Seriously...
>I thought my mum will say study 1st...
>But...
>Hee~Never mind la...
>How U feel about it??
>I think U might don't like about it..
>Guys are always like that isn't??
>Anyway..
>Happy about it...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

I Found Something I Did Not Notice...

>Thanks to Ms. J...
>She help me alot...
>She really is an angel which god send to me...
>I'm touched..
>I found something I did not notice while U noticing me...
>Thank you for being caring to me...
>I did not put much hope but U keep on giving me Hopes...
>I do not knowing why...
>I realize I'm a simple gal which is not outstanding...
>N simply just a un-noticeable gal...
>But U see me...
>I do not know why U see me...
>Maybe I'm out of confident...
>I do not have anything better than any other gal..
>But U see me...
>I'm trying to give in and give time to both of us...
>Maybe things will work out...
>Thank you...Mr. LZK...

Hope that Happiness Will Follow Me...
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To those has no confident on yourself...lk me...One day you will find someone which could brighten your day and to those who already have this happiness..Please cherish it, or you will regret about it...

Is there Happy Ever After...

I would want to ask 月老公公 is there any happy ever after he has made??
I was wondering...
In this world, so big how do we ever know who is our last one and who is the one for us??
But to me it don't matter much...
Cause I'm not sure of myself as well...
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I was thinking...
Is it asking too much..Or thinking too much..Or putting too much hopes??
I wish it is not...
Maybe things has been fated...Unchangeable...
All the same...
I start to feel lost and feel I should not continue so...
It is not going to be different..I feel..
It is not going to change...
It is fatal and fate..On me...
I should stop thinking now..
I should stop everything now...
I should not continue...
I should accept the fate...

Happiness Never Comes...

Date:25 July 2010...

For real or Just fool around...

I do not know why...
How to differentiate which is for real and which is just fooling around...
I hope there are thing which can be use to measure
I do not know all these are for real or not
Hence, I don't even know how i feel actually
God bless me...
I just a simple girl which wish the best for my family members
And a simple wish to be happy person
May all as wish comes true...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

Being a nice person equal to a busybody person

>I would want to share something over here
>What is the definition of a nice person and a busybody person??
>I might need to be a bad person i think...

>Some people will think of me
*Nice
*Kind
*Good-Hearted

>To some people
*Busybody
*Too much time
*A person who use words sarcastically

>I do not know
>Which kind of people think me of which way
>But i know...
>Sometimes...
>People might need to keep their mouth shut so that not much problems come to them
>In addition, we need to keep away from our ears and mouth and eyes from people problems
>So that, the problems will not come to us...
>All in all, i would just want tell
>In this world there are various kind of people
>Which sometimes, we can't even define of these people actually are thinking of what...
>I do not know my thoughts are correct or not
>Or i can say,
>Different people from differ background of family has differ kind of mindsets
>But to me, one thing is very important
>Which is be as general and objective as you can which it could help a person who is innocent
>Which it could really helps when the problems comes to you...
>Maybe in words it might be a very simple thing
>But if reality world
>We will never know what we should and could do with the problems
>Because there are too much thing is in the stake of consideration

Happiness Will Follow Me

Recently~

>Yesterday, he tell me...
>"If i ask u to be my gf will u 吓倒?"
>I was lk...stunt...
>I do not know why and how...
>In a sudden, the feeling of fear start to develop in me...
>I was thinking....
>Is my past experience tell me to fear of relationship...
>I do not know well about this...
>I would want to live a better life with the one i feel can hold my hand till the end...
>I would want a person which could bring me to happiness...
>I might not a pessimistic but...
>Now, I would want to live and go on my life to a better me...
>I start to think...
>Is this guy suitable to me??
>Will he promise me something which previous relation does but in the end...
>Will everything will be alright??
>Is my past will haunt me??
>I do not want anything to happen actually...
>I might still stay in the circle which I don't wish to...
>But...
>Something that has happened yesterday...
>Is something never going to change today or in the future...
>Unless there is a time machine to let the time fly back to the past...
>I wish everything never happen...
>I had too much thing which it should not happen happened...
>Well, this might be my fate i think...
>I would want to know more friend...
>I would want to spend my time preciously...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

I started to work it out...

>I hope my hardwork wont fail me...
>I really hope that what i had figure out to help me in my study will gv me a good result...
>I need it more than i can think of...
>Today...
>I had a tea meeting with UTAR president in heritage hall
>All i had is a feel that...
>Will i grad on time??
>I hope i can do it successfully...
>What i need now is to work harder n do more than i can to help my dream come true...
>Tmr is my photoshooting with my classmates...
>I hope this photo is going to be the reality in the future...
>Hopefully with hardwork...
>I think i can...
>With hardwork...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

Bad Mood~

~Today i got a very bad mood...
~I do not knowing why...But I'm in extremely bad mood...
~I start to realize my hidden self...
~I feel I got so much hidden self which i do not know it is a good thing or a bad thing...
~Sometimes it makes me feel deeply depressed...
~Sometimes it makes me feel deeply stress...
~And even worse,
~It make my life feel so hard...
~It is something that I do not know how to handle it nor face it...
~Seriously,
~In a big trouble now...
~I could only try to control it bits by bits...
~But to change it...
~I think i need more time than i could think of...
~I do not know I need how much time to face it...Or settle it...
~Now,
~I can only find solution to fight till the end...
~Hopefully...I can manage to handle it well...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

LIfe is Getting Harder and Harder to Me...

>I feel life is getting harder to me...
>I might have more than one obstacles for me to go through actually...
>I do not know how to go through it...
>I have been changing a lot since then...
>Since i have obstacles from young times...
>Maybe a lot of friends, peoples and even family do not understand me...
>They might feel that I'm person who always think of negatives stuffs...
>But actually...
>They do not know how i go through my life...
>They might only know about my surface of life...
>But they will never know about what is going through and on my life...
>I really hope that...
>One day..one fine day might come across my life...
>Shining upon my life...
>I hope that i could get more strength from anywhere i could get...
>I really hope that my life get simpler and smoother...
>Now,
>I only have a single thought which is...
>God may give me more faith and strength to go through this life...and obstacles that i'm facing...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

Today~

Today...
I hvnt't go back to my uni...
Today..
I talked to my mum the whole day
I'm so happy while talking to her...
All i can say is i love her more than i can say in words...

I talked to her about almost what is inside in my heart...
I told her about my feeling about the guy who break my heart...
I told her how i feel about my housemate...
I told her about how i fell about my future...
I told her about what i have gone through all the times...

I asked for her opinion about my future...
I asked for her opinion about my love life...
I asked for her opinion to settle down my feeling about past...

She is the one who always stand besides me while i'm alone...
Giving all the strength that i need when i feel down the most...
Giving me chances and faith and passion when i'm lost...
Almost all the times she is the one who give me everything...
She is the most beautiful women that i will never met for the rest of my life...
She accompany me since i'm born...
I would cherish no one than her...

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I would like to dedicate a song here for her..

Because You Love Me by Celine Dion

For all the stand you stood by me
For all the truth that you make me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong you made right
For everything dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reached
You gave me faith cause you believe
I'm everything I am
Because you love me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i can touch the sky
I lost my faith You gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shinning your love in your life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies You were the truth
My world is a better place because of You

Happiness Always Follow Me because There is You by Me...I love You, Mum...

New Photos Being Edited...

My Best Friend...Love ya, Ms.J...too..^@^

All these are my recent edited photos..So Happy that i learn it...

Happiness Will Follow Me...

The Best of the Rest of the Photos...

I think this is the best i hv done...

**More is coming up...

A Brand New Thing I Realize & Found...

>I have a new roommie this semester...
>Since my 1st roommie move out from the room..
>The Roommate keep on changing..
>Am i a person which all of the people around me don't lk me??
>This is a question that i always asked myself...

>And recently...
>I found out...
>It doesn't matter whether other people like u or nt...
>It is the matter of the personality and character that u bring out when u r not alone...
>Sometimes people just don't realize their own problems...
>And this is a problems that people did and never realize...
>Of course..
>This statement include me...

>However, I would proudly say...

>I'm a person which will realize sometimes of this matter of myself...
>I might be a sarcastic in words...
>But chinese people always say...
>忠言逆耳~
>I'm sorry if i write it wrongly...

>In life, i always think of satisfying everyone needs and requirement..
>Then who is going to fulfill my needs and requirement without selfishness...
>Well,
>At here, i would want to thank a million billion thanks to my parent which care about me since I'm born...
>We just can't be someone people want us to be...
>Be yourself...
>Of course..if can the bad attitude and personality should change...
>Have a change is not a bad thing to be a better person..

Happiness Will Follow Me...

This is brand new photo that have been edited..thanks to my new roommie here of introducing me a new software...