Sick again...

>Start to cough again...
>When am i going to get well..
>Today..
>I got an advise frm a vry best fren of mine..
>I knw that i do not hv a high IQ...
>Thats hw i interprete myself that i dun hv a vry high self control..
>I hope that one day i could hv really change myself to a person which all of my fren tell me about my weakness...
>Overall...
>It is a weakness no matter whr i go to...
>I hv been undergo the train of myself to get myself to change to a better me..
>If i could hv change me..
>It change alot myself to a better me...
>I hv been sick for almost wholely a mth...
>Hw m i goin to get well if i really dun change frm innerself..
>I hope that i could really get well no matter frm the sick i really get into..
>As well as my personality n behavior...
>Alot of my caring fren has gv up on me..
>Bcz of my stubbornness..
>I hope i can be myself n as well as change myself to a better one..
>In a way, I hope that ppl could understd me..
>Understanding me nt only my appearance as well as my way of thinking...
>Alot of ppl telling me that im the type which i will not bring harm to ppl...
>Bt sometimes i gt a vry irritating behavior..
>Frm what i hv learn frm my past..
>I thk it is enough for me to be a stubborn person..
>I shud hv some action..
>Some ppl might alwis think of me that im such a wasting time fren..
>What does this mean..
>Cz sometimes i really get into my own thoughts and i dun care abt other ppl...
>Sometimes im really down
>Bcz of i dun hv the self confident i shud hv...
>I shud hv telling myself...
>I shud be myself and being a vry high confident person...
>And the most important..
>I shud listen and make changes if it really a problem to myself and other ppl...

>For those, i hv been that stubborn and making u all feel irritating...Im sry..
>For those has feel dissapointed of me de...Im trying my best of it..I hope for more time..And i cant really change to a person to suit everyone of u...As this is a fact i wish u all understd...I will nt stubborn bt i hope for understanding frm u all...TQ...

Maybe I Shud Just Let Go...

>From the first love till nw...
>It hasnt really gv me a vry secure feeling...
>Or im a kinda the gal which almost all of the guy would lk to hv be only as a fren..
>Mayb i shud hv let go..
>Let him go might is best bad option from the bad options...
>I could fall frm heaven to hell...
>It is a feeling which i really feel frus of..
>God..
>Are u thr listening to me??
>Will u tell me which way i shud go...
>Im tired...
>I wan an answer...
>I love him...
>Bt wat i will gain afterall...
>Hurts...
>Im only a normal gal which hope for love which can bring 2 the end of my life...
>Is it a greed which god feel im nt worth for giving me...
>God...
>I wish that u could gv me an answer which i can let go...
>Letting go is so hard for me...
>Can i choose frm the starting; nt to start this love...
>Can i flash back the time...
>Wish that i could jz let go....