Love???...

Today, one of my fren ask me what is the particular things that need in love... Indirectly, what is love???.... In everyone point of view... Love is different... Some of them look love as a very brave things... Some of them takes love as a games... Some of them think that love is everything... Some says that love is suffering....

Some of people scare to fall in love again... They have been trough a very suffering ways in relationships... I do wanna share some experience of my fren to you all... Let us call her as ms.S...

She is a preety clever and preety gal... She has her 1st bf at the age of 16 years old... She is so young and preety... And she end up with a very sad ending... Its a pity of her.. I know that the fact will never change... At 1st, it is nothing... They start their relationship very well.. Then, they start have arguement... By days, the arguement they have increase... No matter how, ms.S just tolerate and let her bf to the winner... After a year, their problems increase... But ms.S still stand straight to protect their relationship till the end... Then, one day ms.S cant take it anymore... She start to lose confident towards her bf and also this relation... She end up her relationship at last... But that guy still stay close to her... He force her back to her... But ms.S dont want to continue this relation and she ran to Genting to work there and just want to start a new life... But the guy went to Genting to find her... And she give him a chance again... Then, they go back to the relation again... Then, problems comes and the problems is more serious... The guy hits my fren and force her to make love with him... It is a pity to a gal who is just having her the 1st relation... Her life just go on like this... She thought that problem can solve by talk things over... But things get worse... Now it is a impact towards my fren... Although she had already end this relation... But alot of thing will not turn back to the actual 1 or can return to normal... So,ms.S life just being ruin by the motherfucker...

At 1st, I m too do not understd why do my fren is so stupid till like that... That guy is so stupid and so asshole... Just a pervert... But she can love him so much... Now i understd why is it like that... Actually love cant be measure... dont need any reason... dont need anything to have with it... It is kinda feeling that couldnt explain... cant be explain... I m happy that i dont have such terrible guy with me before... I have a wonderful relationship before... But under some problem that we cant solve... It just end up like that... Actually I want to save the relation but thing wont go back... Unless we have a time machine that can turn back the time... (I hope so much)

Lastly, what i want to tell is that cherish whatever we have... No matter in love or it is a thing or family love...friendship dont forget... Just cherish whatever we have... Just care about it... I believe that everything that we cherish and care of will gv the same feedback to us...

Good luck with whatever we have... Remember cherish whatever we have...

@t Last...

At last... I m sick... Huh!!!...Jz hv the 1st paper only... i fall sick... Do not knowing why... But I think i hv settle everything that i need to settle... Well... I hope that i m not sick... Cz if i Sick i will tend to sleep and get rest more... And overall... I will not going to get good marks for my PR paper... I really hope that there is fairy in this world... I m going to get crazy if i go on like this....

At last... I hv settle with A'Phang... I hv told him last nite that we will not going to be what he hope for... Not that i do not wanting this... But i already cannot and I won't believe in this love stuff... At the moment, I wish to be all alone... Not that i don't hv feeling towards guys ad... But I really dun love him and like him... My heart has already complicated... Don't force me... Don't treat me so good... Don't Do anything anymore... I really don't want to feel bad of it... I really don't want to... I m sorry for everything that i do that hurts you so much...

At last... Tmr is my PR paper... Although i hv already study everything and revision again and again... But i feel that i m not doing enough yet... I need to pass this paper... I need to do well in this paper... This is my major paper... I need to pass and do well... I hv ad hurt my mother for what i hv did in the past... For now, it is the time for me to do something for my mother... And only with a good grade, I will gain back my confident in my studies... I need to do well this time... I must... G@batei....

At last... I found out that there are alot of people out there do not like me... Alot of rumours start to spread... And some has spread don't know for how long ad... Only now i know that alot of people don't like me... Last time no matter how much i do bad stuff... Every of my fren will stand for me... But now... I m all alone... I doesn't mean that i want someone to stand for me...But at least they will understd me better than anyone else... It kinda hurt...

I....

I m really blur of myself...
I do not know what i want....
I do really want to find out what i want exactly...
I do not why... but i do try before to try to think of what i want for my entire of my life...
I m so BLUR...
I hope that by days
I can figure out what i want actually... If not i m sure that i will go on my life blindly....
I relly hope that fairy tales are true.... There will be a fairy around me to help me out if i had any problems....
I do hope that there are ppl who can help me... But i know that there will be no one can help me except myself...
I really hope that i can find out who am i actually... who do i belong to.... where will i be in the future....
I m desiring to know and see that day....
I m hope so.... so much....

I @m Happy At The Mom3nt...

I am happy now... I m happy that i do well in my 1st exam ytd... I m so happy till i duno hw to tell or express the feeling... The exam i really put alot of effort in it... Although i duno whether i can score in this exam o not but i m very happy that i do really put aside everything that i m worry of...

Well, i really enjoy ytd... But i m sick now... Fortunately... I hv medicine to cure myself... Haha...

Well, mr. B i hope what u think is right for yourself... and for mr. Lee... I really miss u so much... Although u n me is so far away and we are already only remain fren... But i do miss the moment we spend together... I really hope time can flies back... But i know everything is over between us... I do hope that u n your gf can happily ever after... Although i wish that person is me... But I know everything is not going to like that... I do hope you are happy now...

Do Not Know Why.....??

I do not know why...But i jz wanna search for my soul to concentrate on whatever i wanna do...I really wan to be back my happy go lucky me....I miz the time that i m happy....I really wanna run away frm everything nw...Hope that i can search back my Happy Go Lucky personalities....

Well, I m happy that i m really got put real effort to get back what i wan...I hope that i really can go on like that...It is a gud thing to be....Try to bcum a better me...

Hahaha!!!Hope that everything will go on fine...

Past is Past....Hope that i can change myself to a better me....Hope so....

It's the Time...

Today, it's the day that i will fight for my final....huh!!!!....I hope that i will win this fight...After all that had happen to me, i really feel like i going to hell....sorry to say i feel sucks after everything that had happen to me...i really feel not like to study....I do not know why but i really feel that....i m lost....no mattter in what topic or whatever ways....i jz feel lk wanna die....lost of my soul n spirit cause me couldn't concentrate in studies.....but one thing that i wanna say over here is that.....i really thanks to everyone that besides me when i need love the most....I do not know why....but i m really fortunate enough that i have a group fren that always besides me.....no matter hw bz they are.....thanks guys & gals.....

Especially, Joanne.....i really appreciate u that u always besides me no matter hw bz u are...hw frus u are....u will leave your stuff aside and accompany me....i really appreciate for what u have did for me.....I love ya.....

For mr.B(once my dear), i really appreciate for u hv did with me and did for me....although we are no more a couples....but i will still love u....i know hw depressed that u really are.....but i will still say....u can rely on me whenever u wan....

Huh!!!Today i dun really feel like writing blog nw.....For nw,i would like to fight for my future....The final is coming...I would like to wish for all of my fren.....GUD LUCK YA......G@mB@t3i.....