感情~

>我不懂得如何解释 what is love??
>对我而言，我自动的付出；不要求回报...
>也许就像 Ms.J 曾经告诉过我 ... 这个方式已经不能够再用了
>也许把~
>我也不知道怎样在是最好的方法来为荠一段感情
>要说我是不幸福的活， 我觉得我太不懂得感恩了...
>要说没问题， 我觉得我在说谎 ...
>你的不说， 我的多问 equal to 我也无法解答的问题
>我应该如何在能够解开我们的 gap 呢??
>这是我的问号
>我该如何去结掉我们之间对对方的问号呢??
>我真的不懂~
>好多时候我都在问自己，被人的问题我都没问题的解答
>但我自己的呢??
>我应该怎样去解答，为知己的问题解答??
>我好头痛...
>我该如何才能够打开我的心结呢...
>我的过去已经伤透心...
>如今我该怎么去解开我的心结， 如果没有你的配合
>常常我都回想得很美好， 好让我自己好过一点~
>但我常常事实都是残酷的...
>我好想很完美的牵着你的手肘到老
>但，你的不问不讲不在乎的表情
>让我很害怕， 甚至我有点怀疑你对我的那个心
>但是有些时候， 我很矛盾你对我的好
>你对我的好是从来没有一个过客曾对过我的
>这已足够让我对你的信任度增加
>但你的...我真的不知该如何好
>你能够让我关心你，陪伴你， 听你的问题， 当你的唯一
>口头上你都告诉我， 你会
>但是，你的不说，不问，不在乎的表情
>你偶然的热情，你偶然的冷酷...真的把我冒冷汗
>我曾经说过的 “沉默的即时炸弹”
>我真的很想我小小的梦想能够实现
>有时候的:-
>一个我不想当个坚强的女人的时候
>一个我不想想那么多的时候的女人
>一个我想要变成你的小女人被保护的那种女人
>一个不会好象男人的女人
>我对你的爱，是你永远不会想到的程度
>我想要当你保护，呵护，疼爱，唯一最重要的女人（女朋友的脚色那个）
>LSK..你懂了吗~

Hapiness Will Follow Me~

Alot of thing to think of...for my future...

>I hope that I can stay just like that without new level of life...
>Everyone is going through again and again of new level of life...
>To me it is only new obstacles comes to me...
>For the past, there are alots of thing has been happened to me...
>Which remind about sadness, tears, and of course include joy and love..
>However, obstacles which i mentioned just now never leave me walk alone..
>I was hoping that things will go smoothly which there are not much obstacles for me to go through..
>However, this is my life and I know it from the beginning that obstacles will not leave anymore since the 1st day of my grown...
>There are alot of decision that I need to do now for my future
>Where should I go?
>What should I do?
>How am I doing it?
>What consequences and comparison of good and bad of the decision?
>People that I concern all along, Do I really need to put myself for them and not for my future?
>What decision that I should make?

>I do know what kind of decision that perfectly match what I want and needs...
>But life doesn't really go that smooth..
>People I do concern do not support me to do what I want...
>Chances do always come in front of me but slip away because of them...
>Can I be selfish for myself for once?
>For once that I really can make my own decision for my future?
>For once that I really can go on my life without these transparent blackmailing me wall
>I wish I really can be hard-hearted so that I really can make this kind of decision for myself...
>Which I'm kind of sure that it will work and will help me in the future...

Hope that god bless me and Happiness will follow me...

If You Fail To Plan, You Plan To Fail...

>This is what my best tell me today...
>Regarding to thing which I know best will happen...
>I feel I got some rejection toward these changes..
>Recently, my emo-ness keep on following and disrupt my life...
>There are a few things that I feel uncomfortable of the changes...
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Changes:
~Going to leave a place where give me the most experience of learning
~Going to a place where no longer any closer people with you and new friends which I do not know well about them
~Going to leave my beloved which I do not have faith and confident on Love
~Going to start another beginning level of my life which I do not know what is going to happen next
~Going to learn a chapter in my life which is working world and also called reality and realistic world
~Going to grown into another person through various experience which I do not know how to face new obstacles
~Lastly, miss everything that has accompany my for the past 3 years...

>Hopefully, I can adapt well with the new environment and work well with it...

Happiness will follow me...