A Drunker...

I do not knowing how to tell all this... Nw i know a person who is drunk is what feeling... Perhaps there is sumthing that the person do wanting so much in a very long time ago... But needing to do that need him/her to be brave enuf to do so... Well, not much that i can tell but i know the feeling... At 1st its abit high... Then, it will becum another thing to be... Each of us hv differ ways of style to be drunk... Before we drink... When we are drinking... Then, after drinking... All this has its differ ways to express...

Before we drink...

We are very clear of what we are doing... Then, we will try to think properly before we drink... Then, we start to drink...

When we are drinking...

When we are drinking... We feel like drinking more and more... Then, we will lose our cautiousty... Then, we will start to do something very stupid... Some ppl will shout out like hell... Some ppl will go to jump into river... Some ppl will cry like their parents already dead... etc...

After the drinking, we are drunk... Some ppl drunk like hell... Some ppl drunk halfway... Some ppl drunk will drunk till bother ppl so much... make trouble to ppl who care about me... It is a trouble things... Hmm... what can we do abt it??... Usually i will think properly before i do any decision and action... But nowaday, i m like duno how to think properly and do crazy stuff... I really duno what else that i can do abt it... It is such stupid thing that i m doin...

Huh... Nothing i can do... There is really nothing that i can about it... But who cares... nobody cares about it... Really nobody care...

My Old Fren...

I m so happy that my old fren cum to kampar...Nw at least my fren came to kampar i m nt so bored... Hmm... I really very happy that my fren cum to kampar... She is one of my closest fren... She know how i felt and know what actually happen to me... She know how i go through it... How i suffer from it... I really feel so happy when i know she is cuming to kampar

There is another one is my fren too... She is my housemaid too... Her name is Sook Nee... Altough we are not that close but we are frens since form 6... I miss that time too... At least i won't feel so upset than now... It is far too happier than nw.... I really hope that time can flies back so that i can make some changes... But things won't go back... I know it too well... Far too well..

At the moment, I really feel like i m like a robot.. A robot that being control by ppl... Too sad to be heard but it is truth... Life is like that... Sometimes not that ppl choose to let ppl control u... But it is a choice to make things simple and things not to complicated.... Like the old ppl proverb... One person sad is better than letting everyone to suffer with u... Thats how things works insides of me...

Nw i hv my old frens to be with me... To accompany me... At least there is a part of my life is a happy part... But deeply in my heart I knowing too well that Hapiness is too far frm me... I will never reach that happiness and the happiness will not come to me... Thats is my life... I admit it is abit hurt but i already used to it.... Too well using to the life i have till now... No matter how somethings that couldn't be change is not going to change for forever...

Sometimes life is too hard for human being... In this world human need to sacrfice something for others... Things will not be that well build or go smooth for us... Life is terribly hard to go trough and too hard to adapt to it... Too Hard...

These Few Experience....Hoping For Something

>I really hoping for something
>I do not knowing why
>But things come and go
>Why life must be so hard to go on
>Why ppl must go trough alot of hardness and sadness and also sacrifying
>Only ppl will get what they want...
>God do u hear what i m saying now??
>I m hoping so much that u could hear me and let me have the answer..
>But the answer will never come to me...
>Is there anything that i can do
>So that i can know the answer from u??
>Must there have any sacrifices only then u will give the answer?
>I really hope that u could tell me why...
>If there is a limit on everything that we r doing ...
>Then i wish there is unlimited...
>Life is so tired...
>Ending up life will only cause more and more problem to ppl...
>Stay alive will only getting more problems and miserable thing to us...
>Is there any cure for it?
>I hope...
>But there will not be any medicine for it..
>But i hope that problems will not increase...
>Instead of solving it...
>Life is so much of problems...

Things Being So Hard...

Things had been a very hard time for me to go through... I do not have any idea of things have gone through... I want things to be okay... But it never be... I am trying my best to works things out but things doesn't work out... I want things to be ok with him... He do not wanting it... I m trying my best to make things works out btween them... He tell me to stay out of his stuff... It is wrong to help ppl out... It is noy easy for a gal to let go of somthing they precious alot... I do not understand why that he want the things to become like that... It is he will feel better if other ppl really feel pain and hurt...

He will feel better if a person really feel so.. And if the person is his beloved why he want to hurt her... As a fren here really hope he really can think over it... If he really love her... Why is he keep on hurting her?... It is really feel great for a person to hurt another...

I really have no idea of it... I really don't understand of why is he keep on treating ppl like that... He already hurt 2 gals in the past... While he still have the chance to get back what he have before... Why he want to push things back... Ppl are trying to feel for him... Think for him... And even help him in no return feeling... But yet he still thought of ppl doesn't care enough for him... If he really feel so... I do not knowing how much can a fren can do for him... I really hope that he could cherish everything he have now... At least appreciate of waht ppl do for him...

I really hope that he can understand what ppl do for him and really care for him...

Helpless When She Smiles...

She keeps her secrets
In her eyes
She wraps the truth
Inside her lies
Just when i can't say
What she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all i wanna feel
She'll dance away just like a child
She drives me crazy
Drives me wild
But i'm helpless when
She smiles
Maybe i'd fight if i could
It hurts so bad
But feels so good
She opens up just like
A rose to me
Anything she'd ask me to
I would.....
When she looks at me
I got so weak...

Frm:BSB lyrics..